Birthday's Zen (Lindsey & Caitlin)

I have been missing my Zen. Too much static. I finaly found a peaceful ZEN moment meditating/reflecting after my family's birthday gathering. As we transition from our house and many possessions I continue to remind myself that my family and memories are my only true treasures.

I reflect on my oldest and youngest daughter today. Lindsey now 30 years. She came in a storm and open the blue sky's for us. Our family change over night from a family of 2 to three. Young parents with no or little knowledge of parenthood. I remember being my goofy self and playing with Lindsey & her toys on the floor in our first house on Goodhue. Lindsey was the only toddler at Goodhue and then became a big sister there. I loved to change her sinky cloth daipers. Our Goodhue house cost $22,000 but it was great for us. I made my first big RE commission and paided cash for my Supra. I am still upset with myself when Lindsey hurt her lip on the dashboard of the Supra and cried because the seatbelt did not hold her well. The Supra traveled with Lindsey and followed her all the way to her HS days. I was so excited to take Lindsey to her first movie by myself "The Never Ending Story". What an approrpriate name! I loved to see Lindsey strut herself with the dance teams during HS. Lindsey's face all done up in makeup! I was excited but unsure what to do the first time a boy came to the door for a date with Lindsey. You hope every guy can be that dream. But in life it usually takes time. And then time flys bye and she becomes a professional/30. Today I appreciate and cherish the time we sweat togoether in yoga class. There are not many children today that would let their dad hang out with them in a public group in mini shorts. I cannot forget Shiner (Lindsey's partner) who travels in our family journey and attempts to wag his happy tail.

My yougest daughter Caitlin now 25. My favorite memory of her is us sitting together on the fireplace at Encino Park. She was between 3-4 years old, giving me hugs. It was a moment I will never forget. Caitlin became a fish early on loving to swim. Caitlin's smile and laughter is what brings joy to me. When young wearing her cute bathing suit with her puffy hair. Her manner school training and obessions to going to bed at required times and naming her food. I will never forget the fun we both had with me coaching the Bluebonnets. Caitlin and I are similar in that we like to relfect and try to analyze life. We both "go with the flow' down the winding river running into rocks, but maintain the optimistic outlook. Caitlin constantly exceeds my expectations. She has made a home all by her self in another town, grow into a beautiful woman, and also has become a professional. Caitlin you have accomplished so much being young, you have just started your journey.

The movie "The Never Ending Story" continues for all of our family. Tyler leaves his only home to start a new journey. Kristen prepares to expand her family. Mom & I continue down our new path. Lindsey open's doors for new others. Caitlin expands her "Flow". I smile , laugh and shead a few tears along the way but I embrace the memories our family have enjoyed together and look forward to all of our never ending stories. I appreciate my Zen moment. Note! I barfed all night after our family brunch together. Guess I needed to clense myself for the Zen moment.

Re-Hab Zen Clinic

As you know I had to enter my Re-Hab Zen Clinic due to being exposed to Facebook. I need to clear my mind. I believe I shall re-enter in the near future. Reading Tyler's comments below only enlighten me more! He is more in tuned while I search for clarity. My life is very rich having such a great family!

Happy Hour-Lake & Leaves

Saturday Susie and I had a good time with Jeff at Happy Hour at the Roaring Fork in Austin overlooking a lake. During our Happy hour I continued to gaze over at the lake and ponder about which way the leaves would float. With gusty winds and waves it was unclear to me of their direction. I pose the question: Were the leaves driven by the winds with a predetermined destiny or do they float with the current choosing their own path?

Reflection Moment

Last night I took my meditation walk with my ipod. I needed to let out my frustrations regarding facebook and the thought of moving. I was blaming facebook and family for creating stress on me. I realized dealing with facebook was not a problem and no fault of my kids, but my own issue with it. Often I create a problem because of my lack of knowledge revolving around new technology or some optional directions and open doors in my life. Terming an issue as a problem is my mistake. With all these open doors taking place I need to focus them as opportunities and adventures. I am trying acknowledge my faults and make improvements.

Facebook

After viewing some photos of my family on facebook I may considered joining to view my family. I will not impose on or judge, but view for a better understanding of your lives. I desire to absorb some of your energy and your personal insights to life.

Journeys

The mind has been quiet, must have been in a meditation state. The family members are all following their journey paths. Tyler is in a state of confusion waiting to choose between the multiple lights in directing his pathway. Caitlin has battled the waves in her journey upstream. The water flow has slowed and the destination is near. There will be many rewards at her stop; however, the waves never cease. Take a moment and reflect on your journey. Kristen stays in the maze and likes it there. Lindsey ponders and opens many doors for new journeys. Too many doors surround Susie. She must shut several doors and proceed forward. ZenMaster constantly smells the flowers down his new long path. Zenmaster desires to not just be the door opener, but walk along each you in your journey with the sun shinning upon our shoulders.

Night W/ZenMaster & Kaylee

The night was a reminder of the days when entertaining my three daughters by myself. It was always an adventure & entertaining and rewarding. We watched tennis for Dad, viewed the Simpson movie & Hanna Montona for no reason, found many tickle monsters in the couch, and had a Tea Party & cookies all night long. Kaylee stayed up late waiting for her Mommy & Daddy to come home, but was content sharing time with Papa. Life is good being with your granddaughter and being able to share hugs & kisses.

Tyler Note:

Congradulations, Tyler on your job. This is one of many steps you take in your journey toward independence and self-fulfillment. Being a man requires taking on financial responsiblity for yourself and ultimately others as well, which creates a heavy burden. This creates tremendeous stress throughout your life. It requires that you understand and appreciate the small rewards you receive on a daily basis. Identify, appreciate and give thanks for your daily rewards that provide you with self-fulfillment to constantly fill your glass to balance the conflicting struggles in life.